Wondering

Walking around wondering
what I’d be,
when all this wouldn’t have happened
if you wasn’t there for me
Would I be a better man
Could I be happier then
I am now.
Asking myself
is this the best I can do
when there so much left
in the world to do.
Losing my way,
thinking, dreaming, wondering
If I had my share of the pain
would it be the last for ever
or just for now.
Should I close up again
seal my heart from the world
from everybody out there.
Would I feel better,
by thinking, wondering
if I’m all alone
in my own imprisoned world
that’s my heart once more again